On November 15th I will hit the 5 month mark of life without carbs. I have a hard time being proud of myself because I know it’s not me (only) doing this. I know I am practicing self-discipline but really the strength does not come from self, because my self is so very weak. Without HIM I would have no self-discipline. It’s hard to wrap my mind around that thought. It’s me, but it’s not me – ya’ know?
Here we are though, as I sit here writing I still have not weighed myself. I have no desire to weigh myself. I can see the changes in photographs as well as the old clothes I’m bringing out of tubs and wearing happily. Buying new clothes is fun, BUT fitting back in old clothes is just as much fun, if not a little more. The photo above is from October, and while it’s not a very flattering picture, I can still see how much worse it would have been if I had never made this change. One being that I would never have attempted to play volleyball before. I was a miserable, sleepy, mess of a woman and I am thankful to be where I am now. I would not trade a single carb for the way I feel today. Not even a Papa John’s pepperoni pizza with garlic sauce. Probably.
Another incentive that I have kept since the beginning is a monthly reward for sticking to this low carb life change. I knew this reward could not be food. I remembered a funny yet poignant saying I heard,
“Don’t reward yourself with food, you’re not a dog”.
Starting July 15th I’ve bought myself an item of clothing each month so that I can have some tangible reminder of all the work I’ve put into this. This week, I am having to put my first two reward shirts away. They are too big, and keep falling off my shoulder. How’s that for a progress reminder?! While it makes me sad to lose these two pieces of clothing that I really like and that mean a lot to me, I know that I will be able to replace them with something else I love that’s a size smaller.
Don’t give up friends, just keep working. It will all be worth it spiritually and physically in the long run.